WTF!
it was last april 2 since my last post.,
i wasnt busy, but everything is in a very fast phase. i dont know where to start. i just had this lazy mind and it just stopped functioning properly. April has been cruel to me and May is starting to get on my nerves!! This summer isnt my summer!! I really hated everything about it.
there is too much share and i dont know where the hell should i start. Everything is wired and tangled badly.
As of this moment, as in this very moment, im really pissed off! I woke up early, jogged, done some exercise, took a shower, breakfast and headed to the city hall for registration. I WASNT ABLE TO REGISTER! goddamn government people!! My dad was outraging from anger and my mom is having this drama bullshit of hers! Im already pissed yet i arrive here hearing them nagging..BLAHBLAHBLAH!!! i wanna scream, i wanna rip someone's pants, i wanna pull out someone's hair and kill everybody!
IM ANGRY!!
it feels good when you let your emotions rule over you for sometime. there's a feeling of relief and relaxation. what's bad about it, is the people that surrounds you dont understand what you feel and you cant even let them know how you exactly feel and worse, they are not just giving a crap trying to understand the situation.
i cry alone most of time. i dont want people seeing me cry and then pity me. i cry to unwind and let go, but crying doesnt make me strong.i dont have this eagerness inside me to tell myself that i need to be strong. BECAUSE NO ONE IS STRONG FOR ME. though i have friends who are ready to listen, the problem is they cant give me sufficient advices that i can follow. Common advices are BE STRONG, IM HERE FOR YOU,LET THINGS PASS BY FOR NOW,KEEP YOUR FAITH IN GOD, GOD WILL HELP YOU,KEEP PRAYING. it's hell when i hear those no good advices. it doesn't help at all. im sick of it, it makes me vomit.
i do believe we have GOD, JESUS, MARY, JOSEPH, etc. but i realized they dont help us. they are just like imaginary friends that we talk to when were in trouble. they are our own basic good within ourselves. we just see them as GOD when the truth is that your just talking and asking your fckuing self. better talk to yourself in front of the mirror. it works for me!THE GODDAMN FUCKING TRUTH IS "NO ONE IS GOING TO HELP YOU BUT YOURSELF, OPINIONS AND ADVICES ARE NOT USEFUL BECAUSE IT IS YOU ALONE WHO WILL MAKE THE DECISION." hard isn't it?! it is hell!!
for me, GOD along with HIS almighty band deserves to be appreciated for what THEY have done years and years ago. its better talking to HIM because of bountiful blessings he shared with you and its worse asking for HIS help, because HE doesnt help you at all.
just an opinion, so calm down dear.
maybe just reading this article you may slightly know what's going on in my life. But dont pretend you know everything ok.
in this time of my fckuing life,
i need you understand me but no need to pity me and then caress me.
i dare not to know who cares and who doesn't.
heheheh.,
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Every night i watch this very funny korean reality show called "Two days and One Night"
the show is very funny that i always wake my parents because of my laughs.
you can't blame me, its too funny that i cant keep my mouth shut from all the laughingThe cast consists of
Kang Ho Dong,
Eun Ji Won,
Lee Su Geun,
Kim C,
Lee Seung Gi
and
MC MongKang Ho Dong is the funny and evil one! He is my favorite!!Hahahha., He makes jokes are the roots of evil! He makes this very evil laugh! when i think of him, i cant stop myself from laughing!
here are some vidoes
Kang Ho Dong's wife just gave birth to his son!!
a very funny multiplication game!Every Wrong answer a food from them will be taken away..
someone is taking his revenge,hahaha
continuation.."my Tummy aches!!"
Laughing Out Loud
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
yesterday morning i got an email from Supportsave asking me if i can come in thier office for a job interview. i didnt hesitate to come and accept thier invitation. The interview is scheduled 9pm. Their office is located in Fuente.
i invited my friend Nova to come with me and apply. We prepared her resume' immediately.
around 8:30pm we already arrived in their office. Their were also other applicants. Most of them are matured and experienced people. We arrived there noticing to be the only young people inside the room.
Bwahahahhaha!!!
But someone took my attention!!!
There was this guy, maybe aged like me. He was in blue and black stripes. He has a very white complexion and eyes like those of the Korean actors. He was totally my type!!! Then after staring at him more frequently, i noticed he's like the Julian [the lead actor in the Korean series "My Girl"] He was ooohhh so handsome!!!
Then i was called for the initial exam.
The exam was composed of three different test.
Grammar
Vocabulary
and
Reading Comprehension
i scored an excellent 92%
im so proud of myself
i passed, so im qualified for the next step
"The Initial Interview!"
Nova also passed the exam.
When i was called.,
my knees was terribly shaking.
the interviewer was a their male head.
he had a very minimized voice, but his English was excellent
we asked like-a-tons of questions!!
whew!!!
"It says here that you are still studying. If you're given the chance to work here, how can i assure that you will stay long in this company?"
"Where did you hear about the job vacancy in our company?"
" What do you consider as you weakness and why?"
" Are you confident to pass all the exam and inteviews in our company?"
Those were the major questions he asked me
and worst is that there also follow-up questions in every answer that i give.
i felt i was in hell!!
my nose is bleeding!
ill keep my answers to my self ok?!
it was embarrassing answers
and i cant afford to share it for now.
They told me they'll email the results on the next day.
The same goes for Nova.
while others stayed for the final interview.
we then went home.
i arrived already 1:30 am!!
sleepy and tired!
Monday, March 30, 2009
waaah.,
Etelecare just call me a while ago.,
I was editing my resume' when the phone rang.
It was a female caller.
She had great english accent
[NOSeBleed]
i have to speak english too to impress the employer.
i have this mixed emotions
i was happy.,
i was excited.,
i was nervous.,
i was shaking.,
i cant find the right words to tell!!
i felt i was going nuts!!!
She asked me tons of questions actually.,
but the conversation was short.
She asked me what she should call me
i told her
"you can call me Jesse"
"is it your first time to apply on a call center?"
"Yes, this is my first time"
"OK, in your resume', it says you're still studying. So what course are you actually taking?"
"im taking up Information Technology in University of Cebu"
"Good Course!"
i was already on hype!
really excited!
she then asked me.,
"so what year are you in now?"
"im an incoming 2nd year student, but i am a shiftee."
"how many years are you aldready in college"
"i studied at University of San Carlos for one sem
then i transfered to university of Cebu last June 2008, it makes a year and a half college experience"
"ok, hang on for a minute"
the phone the said
"tutut,tutut,tutut,tutut"
T.T
But the phone rang again.,
she told me
" im sorry for the technical error Jesse"
"It's ok"
"i talked to my supervisor here about you situtation, sad to say that we cant consider your application for now because your have not completed a 2 year college experience. But we will keep your application active and after 5 months we will surely call you."
the world put me down.,
i wanna cry!!
Sunday, March 29, 2009
whew.,
its been 3 weeks since my last post.,
wadahill?!!
..i got too lazy..
where should i start?!
..END oF CLASSEs..
Well, classes just ended last week. i already settled my clearance and final projects. all i worry for now, is my GOD-DAMNED grades. Im not expecting my grades have improved, but more on hoping my grade would be settle on the passing grade. i dont want back subjects.,
for God's Sake!!
it's a big NO,NO,NO!!!!
on the other hand, my programming subject is assured "FAILED". i havent completed my last last project. A program that compiled all the activities we made through out the semester. i think i missed half of the activities.
IM in HELL!!
...The PEERS..
[eyescream]
i still go out with them.
recently we had a tribe outing at the beach just last March 21, 2009
it was a fun day.
Emorej courted me actually,
but i have to put him down.,
he's really not my type of guy
he is too matured..
Lem was different today.,
ive seen another side of him, which i like..
he cried because of his GF
ive not seen him REALLY CRYING
he was hiding under his towel.
we was also sweet that time.
he made me fuss
..REUNITED..
just last wednesday
i reunited with my USC classmates
we went to liloan for a swim.
hehehe.,
i was happy i was able to hang out with them once again.
seeing them again make me reminsce my days in USC
the Jesse they knew.,
totally different from Koki now.
i also met new people.
Victor, Balong and Jed
heheeheheh.,
...The Silent WaR...
my mom and i still dont do the normal thing
we dont talk to each other.,
her PRIDE LEVEL aldready surpass the maximum level!
well i dont rush things.,
i still do clumsy things at home.
i dont strive too hard to impress her
i dont pretend that i can be perfect.,
but im trying things on my own.
..SEEKing for The Right JOb...
im in desperate need of a job!!!
im have passed application forms to all near
Jollibee branches last friday.
Now im waiting for a call back.
i've been applying on Call Center online
and by tuesday i'll try walking in to the company.
its a tough job just going around the city looking for a job
but i have do it
my father have been unemployed for 3 months
and our money is draining
we still need to prepare for the coming enrollment this march
i need a job!!
SO much To Tell.,
But my nose is already bleeding.,
i cant find the right words anymore!!
TABANG!!
