hehehe...
well i really kinda kept my mouth shut for the blog for a quite few days already.
and even up to now, i just dont know where to start!
i want to share,
but something is keeping me shut...
hehehehe..
so for boredom sake, here are some picture that i recently edited on my photoshop
hope you like it
enjoy!
i recently lost my ragdoll
[huhuhu ;c]
just a combination of me
opacity is reduced to 4%
filtered
and
outer shadows for the text
combination of two pictures
title redhead
just an experiment i did
with my friend's
picture
a photo taken infront of
the male cr
layered
burned
grayscaled
and filtered
photo taken inside the house
layered
filtered
adjusted contrast and brightness
added shapes
my pic with my brother
transparent bg
grayscaled
4photos of my
male closest friends
photo color filtered
filtered
adjusted brightness and contrast
photo taken at the
mall
grayscaled
half-tone pattered
text is beveled and
opacity is reduced to
45%
Friday, January 23, 2009
The famous quintet Flyleaf is from Belton, Texas. thier songs confronts past traumas to heal old scars and to prove hope will overcome despair. their music are heavy and loud. Flyleaf's self-titled debut album echoes with songs about abuse, neglect, addiction and dysfunction, and messages about overcoming adversity. And the band's wide array of brooding beats, atmospheric textures and lunging riffs compliment Mosley's emotionally revealing lyrics, which range from breathy and beautiful to scathing and aggressive.
it was 5 years ago that Mosley together with Culpepper joined with Bhattacharya and Hartman. Mosley says that they did a great job on their first practice and that the band were musically experimental.
thier gig at Austin's legendary music convention in 2003 gave thier biggest break and signed up for Octone. And by 2005, thier self-titled album was released, with tracks; Cassie and I'm Sorry.im a huge fan of Flyleaf also. Thier music has a story to tell. It revovles around pain but they give resolutions. Lacey is very beautiful, her charisma is different from others. She's kinda gothic with the way she has her make up but it definitely fit her.
here are some songs ive got:
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
weeehh!!
10 years from now, i really want to see myself doing what i really want. No worries and No doubts, just pure fun and exciting moments. i want to feel carefree of the world. i want to do things my own way, no one ordering me around and yelling at my mistakes. i want to experience, me as the boss, as the superior and someone everyone looks up to.
at the age of 22
i am a proud graduate of Information Technology in University of Cebu!When the Fucking Global Crisis is resolved, maybe ill apply at a Call Center and make it as my first stepping stone. i would probably save for a house and lot for my parents first.
then i'll apply for a job that really into my course, maybe a computer networking company.
ill try to learn Photography on my own. it's really what i want to do. i am crazed into pictures and editing. Then if everyone else can call me a pro already, i'll have my own studio and make my own photograph business, eventually.
then ill save for my schooling. i will take up Fine Arts in University of San Carlos or study Interior Design in the Philippines School of Interior Design. then i'll become a renowned Interior Designer /a proffesional Photographer.
ill buy myself a house and lot and a car. Go on wild trips abroad.
maybe at the age of 30,i can have all of those things..
the next step for me, is to have my own family. ill marry a guy who has been with me throughout my journeys, all throughout my ups and downs.
i dont see myself to have many kids..
maybe one or two will do
best is to have twins;one boy one girl
i need to maintain a healthy and sexy body
so that my husband wont look for another woman and also for me to see my kids reaching for thier own dreams.
i have too much to dream right?!
i dont expect all this will happen but im hoping
its good to have a plan to make my life better
than not making a plan at all
just means planning for a worst life in the future ever!
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Ahhh...
i just got home from a very tiring but a super great day.
Viva Pit Señor everybody!!
it was my 2nd time to stroll around Cebu during the sinulog festival. im with my aunt and 2 of co workers at shangri-la hotel plus with their funny kids; skie, eq and lil mario.
Sinulog Festival is a huge fiest in the country. many tourist are attracted to visit the country to witness how our fellow countryment expresses their fatih to Sr. Sto. Niño. for the youth, its a fun activity. there are many late night concerts and big discounts are given. Multi-colored hairs, henna tattoos and wierd fashion sense.
we parked our service in ayala mall around 2:30 pm and then rode on a public vehicle down to the city proper. Colon Street was closed and was filled with this bunch of people walking around, vendors yelling and rain was pouring. we walked for almost 4 hours just roaming around. Eating and watching the sinulog street dances. it was very fun. even the kids we're not a total burden to be with, they enjoyed themselves as well. we went back to ayala walking. i wanted to wait for the fireworks display but my mama and papa are waiting for me at SM.
i arrived in Sm already 7pm. my feet are going numb and i was very hungry!
due to hungriness, i was in total high!
i started to make fun out of myself. taking wierd pics of myself, singing and doing non sense.
i also lft my 5220 phone at the nokia center for repair, so sad to know, can only claim it after 5 HELL DAYS!
so for 5 days..
no pictures..
no videos..
wawah!!!!!
heheheheh!!!!!
my brother became like me. we we're hell crazy!!taking non sense pictures. pose there, pose here!!
we we're kinda nuts!
my mother kept on reprimanding us to stop..
but nothing's gonna stop the kokiyman tandem!
hahahah....
we reached home by 10pm.
im tired, im sleepy...
but there is no class for tomorrow!!!
hahahhaa...
ill sleep late!
wake up late!
watch out for my videos from my sinulog tour!!!
harharhar
nahnyt nah!
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
when i was going home, i thought of having me and my brother suprised by an unannouced arrival of my father. i had thought of it just for a few minutes, i was just thinking and letting the time pass quickly. Ever since i knew about the retrenchment thingy of my father in Riyadh, i was constantly asking my mom when is he going back home. my mom just answer me that papa is still arrangign his papers. i always took my mom's words seriously.
She went out last night around 8pm and told us she will meet her friend at the bank.
i was doing my project by 9pm, when my mom arrived. i thought she brought her friend, for i heard another footsteps. i got stucked in opening the last door lock, and then i felt i needed to hurry opening the door. i did not understand how i felt that very moment, i just knew that i needed to hurry.
i opened the door at last, then my dad just appeared in front of my very eye. i did not know what to do or what to say. i was entirely caught off guard. i just remebered that i was already hugging him, and im already crying. i never had hugged my dad ever since. im a papa's girl but im not the sweet daughter type. he told me not to cry and wiped my tears off.
i still got the feeling ofqustioning why this happened to us, but im still hoping for the better tomorrow. i am happy having my dad around.
Monday, January 12, 2009
im sorry
I know I shouldn't apologize,
But this is what I have to say,
I can't pretend everything is okay
I'm sorry,
That I bring you down,
From your unrealistic joy world
Where everyone and everything is smiles,
Not a tear, not a frown
I'm sorry
That you don't listen to me
I don't now why you do,
But I guess that's the way it's ought to be
All the words I say don't matter,
And all the while I get sadder and sadder
I'm sorry,
That I can't help but feel the loneliness,
In my heart
All the wonderful times we have shared,
Have grown apart
But I can't help but feel betrayed
All those years I've known you,
And you still don't know me at all
I'm sorry,
That the world has turned its back on me,
And that everyone looks the other way
Rejected, confused even when I'm with a group
It's just another set,
That I'm too tired to choose
I'm sorry,
I know I shouldn't apologize,
Because,
I've wasted your time
And most of all...
MINE.as go through this poem, i feel like it's me telling it "this Someone" who betrayed me.
im a true friend to those who are true and trustworthy.
im a total shit to those who deserve to be treated like one.i value my friends so much!
i've been keeping this "anger" inside of me for quite a long time already.
and maybe through this, i can breath smoothly and eventually let go of my anger one day.
i am even afraid to publish this for she might read this. but maybe, it will be God's will and maybe, MAYBE she'll understand and accept.
we have been friends for almost 7 months already. we have this great connection even from the start. we've got lots of common. we understand everything in almost the same prospective. we love our company. i understood everything about her, from her family down to her love issues. she's a person who doesn't want attention in a huge crowd. she hides herself. she's a loner. she prefers just staying in a room alone than walking around or staying in a group. she love the company of boys [HELL YEAH!] she says that boys are even cool to be with because they can accept who you are. boys do not back stab. boys dont make issues. i agree with that. [i really do]
this closeness she had with the boys brought her to be someone i didnt expect her to be. she cannot make her own good decision. she keeps saying "coz she doesnt have any CHOICE" she is easily carried away with sweet words and boys are taking advantage of it. though, she says that "she can hadle it" , but it seems she can't.
she keeps on asking me to give her advices. i gave her the best i can give. i pushed her to take control and think well. i'm not saying she's dumb or anything, she's just WEAK. i can even say she's IMMATURE. never put to actions what come out to her mouth. SHE'S A HELL SELFISH!!! i hate to say it but that's what i think about her. she keeps listening to my advices but always follow where she think she alone can benefit.
im so damn tired of it! i wasted my time to someone who even doesn't deserve my time. now our friendship fades away. i am not like before who looks for her and reserve something for her. i cant waste time to those people who doesnt deserve my effort.
for me, it's very hard. i treated her like a sister and i had even compared her to my bestfriend. i introduced her to my family, who welcomed and who listened to her. i did a lot for her, for the friendship to last...
but i guess nothing last for a person who's self centered.
maybe that 7 months wasnt really enough let us get to know each other.
i am very hurt at this point. i was true throughout our friendship, but i've got to have the unfair share.
i did cry for her...
hope that when everything is clear for her...
my tears wont be a waste..Remeber This
Not signed nor dated but sealed with a kiss
These words that I wrote with my own hand
So when you read them, remember this
No one will ever understand
There's a secret I keep, a hidden pain
and it keeps me from dry land
It continues to run through my every vain
and no on will ever understand
Drama, rumors, lies and more
all this crap that I cant stand
trying to crack a window after every closed door
no one will ever understand
I hope your happy with the man you chose
I hope your life goes according to plan
There's something I've gotta say so here it goes
YOU will never understand
You'll never understand what I go through
You'll never understand how I feel
All I wanted was to be close with you
Now I've lost everything that was once real
I sacrificed my happiness for yours
and I took you by the hand
I cleaned up all your dirty chores
No one will ever understand
Not signed nor dated but sealed with a kiss
These words that I wrote with my own hand
So when you read them, remember this
YOU will never understand i tried helping you
Over the last three years I kept running back
Whenever you came back I opened you in
I never realized why I always did this
But now I realize where all the stuff begins
You see, I wanted to help you
I wanted you to be healed of your pain
I wanted to show you that I could help you
And that you weren't going insane
I wanted to show you of the past that hurt you
Men in your life that treated you like dirt
I wanted to help you get through all those hurtful years
And that is why I stopped all of the flirts
I really no longer cared about us getting together
I did not have those feelings for you anymore
I did love you like I should but I faked it
And I could never pull myself together to walk out the door
You see, the counseling side of me took over
I wanted to help you get over all of your past
So you could finally be happy and trust people
But there was so much junk and it didn't last
You were still in love with me
But I was just trying to help you
I was stupid for sticking around
When I knew that we were forever through
I know it's a stupid reason to stick around
But I hated seeing a friend hurt for so long
I wanted to assist you in getting healed
And I wanted to show you that you could be strong
So I am sorry that I stuck around through those years
I'm sorry that I never told you this a long time ago
I held on not because I loved you but because I felt guilty
There were so many things that I wanted you to know
I wanted to show you the hurt that you had about your dad
I wanted to show you the pain from your ex boyfriend
I wanted to be the one that could get you through it
But I realized that you are not close to letting yourself mend
So now I have chosen that I really need to walk away
Because you have a boyfriend that will fail again
You have so many trust issues that you are hiding
And I can no longer even call you a friend
Sunday, January 11, 2009
i really dont know if my new haircut fits me!!
i just got my long hair cut awhile ago...
now it's short...[real short]
hehehe...
it's part of reinventing myself for the new year
many people actually knew me through my redhair...
i even got called to be a Haley Williams [Paramore] look alike...
i am starting to lessen my meals now..
and i'm in a strict discipline...
i am really dedicated to this dieting..
i am looking forward for the next 2 months for the results.
Friday, January 9, 2009
Secondhand Serenade is an acoustic band composed only of a great man named John Veselyy. Band is inspired by Dashboard Confessionals or Five for Fighting. The name of the band is inspired by the fact that the songs he written are dedicated to his wife.
Having this "one-man band" takes creativity and real passion for music. I've read an article saying that Vesely, composes, sings the vocals, makes the second voices and edits his own songs. it's not an easy job just to please not only his wife but also the fans.
His debut album, Awake was released by 2005. Tracks Vulnerable and Your Call captured many music lovers to admire Secondhand Serenade. Twist in my Story, his second album was them recently released last year. Having Fall for you and Like a knife tracks part of the album.
Its Not Over - Secondhand Serenade
Thursday, January 8, 2009
downloading turbo C++, same program we use in school
is driving my nuts!!!
i dont know what to do!!
i need it ASAP for my projects in my Programming course!!
will someone help me??!!!
even my brain now is fucking dead!
i dont know what to tell!
all i know is that im pissed right now!
pimp your myspace
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Bass: Jeremy
Guitar: Josh
Drums: Zac i have been this huge fan of paramore since their debut album "ALL WE KNOW IS FALLING" I am amazed with the voice of Hayley Williams. I just love how she uses her voice. Her fashion is also a trendsetter. Her orange and red hair is her trade mark. For 2009, she is having a violet hair with red bangs! I've seen it already! i could not tell her EMO or even PUNK but i see her as someone unique. She is just not different from jeremy, josh and zac. she's like a male. LOL. but still i see her in a dress and then i tell myself, she is this KIKAy too.
her beauty stands out from the rest of the female band vocals.
the boys of paramore are Jeremy, Zach and Josh. they are also cool. they also love fun. i dont think that they get intimidated with Hayley being more well-known. jeremy is 22 years old. he loves cars. josh is 20 years old, kinda serious but still funny. zach is the youngest, 18 years old and plays the drums.
Hayley, Josh and Zach we're in the same school, and then Jeremy was added to the band. Paramore was officially formed in 2004. Thier big break was the the Fueled Ramen discovered them at a gig in Florida. "ALL WE KNOW IS FALLING" was released in 2005 as thier debut album.Then thay started to have concert tours in US. "RIOT" is thier recent album.Here are some Paramore songs ive got on my Pc
-when it rains
-franklin
-that's what you get
-for the pessimist, im pretty optimistic
-my hero
-my heart
-ill never let this go
-hallelujah
-miracle
-emergency
-decoy
-consipracy
-misery business
-stuck on you
-decode
start lovin' Paramore guys!!!!
Paramore - Misery Business - Paramore
Monday, January 5, 2009
this day is just the same with my regular same school days. go to class then be invincible, chit-chatting with friends and eat then eventually go home..
hehehehe.....
somehow, i also have a new look for 2009. i minimized the thickness of my red hair. i colored my hair with black again. now, my red hair just looks like a highlight.
hehehehe...
friends also fooled around with me too, because of my thin eyebrow.
they said it's ok but it's too thin...
i was shy...real shy...i wanna cover my face
i hate it
hehehehe...
my friend even followef me around, just to take a closer look of my eyebrows
it's embarassing!!!
hehehehehehehe....
Listen to:
When It Rains - Paramore
Sunday, January 4, 2009
i really really love sneakers!!
i would prefer having them for slipper or high heels
if only i got plenty of money, i would really collect tons and tons of sneakers
i only got two sneakers
one is from chuck Taylor [converse], a gift from my mom when i was 16
the other one is brand less
i've seen this multiply blog shop
which sells vans shoes with customized designs
actually, i first saw the cools shoes on a article from a blog that i am following [iamsam]
i am dying to buy one!!!!
Cool isn't it??!!!!!
Im saving for one!
Friday, January 2, 2009
what a freakin' Friday
today is the first Friday of the year. traditionally, we went to Sto. Niño Church to attend mass and to light candles. the place was very crowded.
hehehehehe.....
during the mass i saw this cute guy!
he was sitting at my back,left side.
i caught him many times glancing at me.
i pretended not to care
but i was giggling and blushing inside...
after the mass, we separate ways.
we went to the mall afterwards...
grabbed a meal
and waited for my cousin to arrive.
my cousin arrived an hour ago after we ate.
we went to the trade hall and unlucky i wasn't able to control myself from spending some cash. i brought this jelly watch and a pair of shades
my cousin and i left the mall for another strolling at "Time Square" and the place we call "Tabu sa Banay"- a place for fashionable + cheap clothing
i got to buy this
♥i was really caught by this dress. ♥
♥i so much love it. ♥
♥it' my only dress in my closet.♥we went back to first mall we we're in and looked for my mom. then again money was released
i am really a money spender!
but i treat these things as my investment
i could sell them if ive got bankrupt
LOL
here are the girts i received for Christmas: beltbag from mama
ID Sling from mama
Hoodie from mama
