Since the day i started drinking, i was a little bit away from my friends. At first, they we're okay with it. They continuously warned me not to overdo and to keep attending my classes. i was happy that they are concerned about me.
Drunk days: Thursday Feb 12, Friday Feb 13, Saturday Feb 21 and today Feb 27
Feb 12
My friend nova, was having her "period". Every girl in this world, hates having their "period". i suggested to her drink any kind of liquor, but i didnt force her to do so. For me, it's my way having my "period days" shorter. After a while, she invited to me join her.
We had a Grande "RedHorse".
It was too much for me and so we entered the school campus a little bit drunk. i remembered that i was noisy and that i moved a lot. i wasnt able to attend 2 minor classes and even attended my last class, still on high!
Feb 13
it was Friday the 13th, we had no class. my friends was craving for a drinking session. we started the 1st round, around 2pm and finished at 430pm. i was already drunk. i wasnt still and had talked to much. we went back to the campus, to check for classes. when classes was confirmed "cancelled", we went back for another round. it was 530pm, friends we're not giving me shots and letting me rest for awhile.
That day was memorable for me because my crush was with me. i was leaning on to him and takes all my shots. he was taking good care of me.
Feb 21
the eyescream "get together" i wasnt really drunk that time. i took some shots, but i kept of passing and getting away from the group. it was just a fun day knowing new people and enjoying their company.
today Feb 27
i was just invited by some friends. i was not supposed to drink coz i still have my class at 330pm.
My friends saw me entering the campus red and a lil bit drunk. They warned me again. They kept on telling me that im slowly changing to a person that i was supposed to hate.
i know, these friends of mine are genuine and true. Despite the few changes i made, they still accept me and still makes me laugh. i am taking down all thier worries in me.
i kind loved the new changes in my life,
new friends,
but maybe drinking isnt really for me.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
yesterday, i attended the "special gathering" of the eyescream members. It was fun and exciting. i drank just a little of the liquor they prepared for the newbies. They called me in a different name, "KOKO" hehehe..
there we're a new bunch of people that i've met.
i enjoyed my time there!
i also kissed sniper!! [hahaha]
just for nothing!
triptrip lang
Friday, February 20, 2009
this is a new start for me!
recently i joined this so-called clan "EYESCREAM". A clan whose members are mostly pure emos, emopunk and screamo fanatics; a combination of Emogirls and Emoboys. Honestly, the clan is generally composed of those students who cut classes and spent the entire day at beer houses near school.Most of the clan members are already my friends since the 1st semester, so i really dont have anything that is against the clan. it's just i dont like cutting classes (i do cut class but i dont spent my free time on beer houses)
i was supposed to be one of the pioneer members of the clan, but i hesitated to join at first. i'm a person whose not really into "GM's" (general messages!") and texting with a bunch of people that i rarely know. But, as for the past few days, i was craving for something new; something that i dont usually see or do. it's like, i want a new circle of friends (but of course not leaving the old ones).
the members welcomed me warmly. There's a grand EB on saturday which i'll have to attend.
im glad having this "clan thingy"
hehehe
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Currently im at school..
doing nothing!
my program doesnt work at all and im just tired understand every little details!
there's no hope for me for this subject!
i embrace my downfall!
just listening to HIS music!
Saturday, February 14, 2009
it's hell!
after the tragic past relationship i had month's ago, i desire to be in a brand new relationship. i have tons of crushes both outside and inside school campus and take note : "They are all my friends, they just dont know!"
i admit that i easily get infatuated with boys.
i really like boys who are
1.Gwapo! [pwde pud kanang madada ra!]
2. Different from other guys
3. My friends
4. extremely and insanely sweet
5. those who dont forget me [mutx jud and kanang kusug managad!]
6. those who are not there all the time [it makes me miss him. once a day may do]
7. COOL
8. those who are good but kinda mean.
i dont know why i am easily caught off-guard by boys. when i cant take the pressure of keeping my crush, then friends will soon know. It's just funny that when friends know, then i realize, ive got rivals!! bwahahaha!!!
but im not into competing or anything.
Now, i really like this certain guy. i had a crush on him on since the 1st semester but we're not friends yet. im just into admiring him. when we actually knew each other, i even admired him more. He is this quite but funny guy. His music describes him a lot. i look forward on seeing him on MWF's night. he doesnt talk too much about his life and intends to rejects when you ask him such questions. we're great friends, but we dont go out too much. i just see him during classes. i know, he has this complicated relationship with a girl and even admits that he is single.
last FRIDAY night.
i was with friends on a liquor drinking session. i was kinda drunk. he was beside me, and i was leaning on him. when he noticed that i cant take it anymore, he took my shots. he was holding me so tight. it was a moment i wished that never ended! when we finished, he was embracing me tight. waaaaaaaaahhh, i wished we never ended that night! i was on cloud nine!
i know, everything that happened that night will just stay on those corners of the beerhouse. but there is something in me, trying to picture out my life with that guy! and i know it's called "EXPECTING!" what's the difference between hoping and expecting?!!
im happy
but im
hurting
because of the huge questions
" do i really like that much?!"
" am i expecting for a relationship to bloom between us two?!"
" what would happen when we see each other next week?!"
" will everything that happened be forgotten?"
im in hell!
help!
enjoying the scream!
9:51 PMi'm a new fan of the so-called "SCREAMO MUSIC"!
a friend of mine introduced it to me, asking me a favor to download such songs for him. When i heard the songs, it's not boring at all. the beat is cool and the vocals just rock! some bands are atreyu and ten masked men. Some songs of the Ten Masked Men are actually revived, some are from Britney and Christina. They put a different taste to the song. Everything was hard rock. Vocals are screaming and drums are ruling over!
Here is Genie in A Bottle by Ten Masked Men
Genie In A Bottle - Ten Masked Men
if you dont feel the music..
then dont listen to it.
hehehee
Happy Heart's Day
9:20 PMuhhmm..
im currently single so there's nothing special that happened in my day. i actually greeted everyone a "Happy Heart's Day!" this morning. After my 10:30 am 3hour class, i stayed in my friend's place and just watched her accepting warm greetings from her boys. Actually, i got intimidated watching her blushing and giggling around. i asked myself, "why does she have those boys around her? But i have none T.T?!!" hehehehehe...
i was supposed to wait for a "CERTAIN PERSON" there, but he didnt show up. But he called me a lot of times; not for sweet talks but to ask information about his PE class. honestly, i was pissed. i expected him to come, but nothing happened! it makes me angry, but what could i do?! It's me who likes him, not the other way.
when his decision was finalized, i decided to hurry up for the family date my parents prepared for us. We ate at andoks and went to grocery together. i was pretty ok at first, but strolling around the mall, made me feel dizzy and sleepy. Friends says its a late hangover, after a two day drunk sessions.
i can't really describe how my day went, it wasnt a boring day, but i had this mixed emotions.
anyway's
Happy Valentine's Day everyone!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Fucking School Internet Access!
11:48 PMSchool internet access sucks!!!
it makes me make my projects at home!
i cant do my blogs
i cant chat with friends properly
i cant sleep early!
its lame!
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
The New Look
10:57 PMfrom long red highlights, then to a short red highlights
then now..
back to black
with my korean inspired look
dyandyandyaran....
i just love reinventing my self
hehehe
my friends love it
just need to be used to wearing the big eye glasses
my nose gets numb when i take them off
hehehe
Lemuel Caser
10:21 PM
this is Lemuel and Me
i could say he's not the typical guy i would probably have a crush on, not someone i could even rely on and not someone i could have as a boyfriend.
what i love about Lem is
he is fashionable and neat
he wears what really suit him, clothes that will make him pure human. LOL! i admire his fashion sense.
he is Music lover
he could easily memorize lyrics and he knows a lot of songs, you dont know yet. i got this music desire from him.
what i hate about him is
he was once greedy for food
he's not fat all but he was once fat.
he is still self centered
he minds his own business, doesnt care about everyone else.
During the first semester, Lem and I always stick together. we had most of our vacants together; we like a couple according to some reliable source. hehehe! i had a boyfriend when Lem and I became friends. Even my boyfriend was once jealous of him
Now, 2nd semester. i was stated as single already. friends started to tease us. Our friends was doubtful of his gender because he never had a girlfriend. But i knew that he had once courted a girl way back in high school, but he was given a thumbs down. i felt that because of that experience, he never wanted to try again.
So came a day that i told him, that i can be his girlfriend but not really committed. it was just a joke for me and my friends, but i was open for the possibility that we could end up together, besides, we both are single. he took it as a joke too but never entertained my silly sweet moves to him. i felt he wasnt really into it and decided to slowly stop.
until one night, i opened his FS account, and thier was a status change
"In a Relationship"
i laughed and sent a comment to him telling
"in a realationship?!
really?
so then it's official?!"
i meant for "official" is our relationship
he replied
"dont feel the moment!, its not you!!"
i was suprised
it was a mixed emotion
i was pissed
but im happy for him
hehehehe
